I have a dysfunctional relationship with sleep.
Don't get me wrong... I love sleeping. If I were to chart my history with sleep, I'd say it's been a pretty good ride.
But let's look at functional sleep of an average person. When we're babies we sleep a lot. Probably... 15 hours a day, let's say. Then into our teens we started to realize that staying up was more fun - especially to watch a movie, or stay awake at a sleepover. Into our adult years, we develop a real appreciation for sleep as we look forward to that deep state of relaxation after a hard day's work.
Well, I did say I have a dysfunctional relationship with sleep, didn't I?
You see, I feel like I'm living in a constant state of sleepiness. It has stopped me from doing things I like - being social, going to the gym, eating healthy, even *gasp* having sex. Because I'm always tired. And when you're tired, well it's a lot of effort to roll over and ask for a snuggle.
The real problem for me is that no matter how tired I am, or how little sleep I got the night before, around 9:30/10 pm I am, as the Brazilians would say, 'electric'. I have lots of energy and produce some of my best work at that time! It's the time I choose to start planning my classes for the next day and then consequently I am in bed around midnight every night.
And I wake up at 5 am. So you do the math.
The mornings are so difficult. I usually hit my beloved snooze button for 30 mins before literally forcing myself to get out of bed, where I often shower with my eyes closed. Sometimes I wake up 15 mins later than I should (and I already wake up with less time than I actually need!) convincing myself that I don't need to dry my hair or put on makeup today! Or it's ok if I'm 10 minutes late! This is Brazil!
I walk around like a zombie after getting only around 5 hours of sleep a night 5 days out of the week.
And every day I get home,
And I know I'm not alone out there! So many of us are living this way! As if it's a test to see who can function the best on the least amount of sleep. We get through our days with coffee, energy drinks, sugar and sheer will-power. It's torture, I tell you!
So I am taking a stand. I am saying NO MORE! No more 'napping' from 6-8 pm. No more eating a big meal after waking up from said 'nap'. No more staying awake just to watch more TV, since it's a show I don't even care about anyway!
No, I'm taking these steps.
- I am going to get organized
- I'm going to plan my classes before sitting down to relax or going to the gym.
- I'm going to go to the gym as soon as I'm finished my class planning
- When I get home I need to eat a small meal
- I want to be in bed by 10 pm and read to relax me into a peaceful sleep.... (that being said, it's 10 pm right now and look at what I'm doing... DAMMIT!)
Anyone else have helpful suggestions as to what helps you sleep at night??